want to self actualize

sometimes in life, i wish i had the freedom to do what i want without being hindered by so many things around me.


lacking of resources is one thing.

lacking of willpower and confidence is another.

I just know that i could do so much more and there is always something that seems to be getting in the way.



I really need to learn ways to overcome all those obstacles and be brave enough to dream BIGGER.


I wanna spread my wings and soarrrrrrrrrrrrrr

....fly fly fly awayyyyy

but because i lack resources, all i have are Helium gas filled heart shaped balloons to fly me.

i need a holiday.


this song is playing in my head unconsciously as i type...

Whats going on - 4 non blondes

25 years and my life is still
trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination
I realized quickly when I knew I should
That the world was made up of this

Brotherhood of man
For whatever that means
And so I cry somethimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out what's in my head
And I'm, I am feeling a little peculiar
So I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's goin' on
And I say hey....
And I say hey what's goin' on
And I say hey....
I said hey what's goin' on
Oooh....
Oooh....
And I try, oh my God do I try
I try all the time
In this institution
And I pray, oh my God do I pray
I pray every single day
For a revolution
And so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed
Just to get it all out what's in my head
And I'm, I am feeling a little peculiar
So I wake in the morning and I step outside
And I take deep breath and I get real high
And I scream from the top of my lungs
What's goin'on
And I say hey...
And I say hey what's goin' on
And I say hey...
I said hey what's goin' on
And I say hey...
And I say hey what's goin' on
And I say hey...
I said hey what's goin' on
Oooh....
25 years and my life is still
trying to get up that great big hill of hope
For a destination